changes.

 

Time wears on gradually,

I've lost track of time,

I've encumbered in distressed,

I've changed a lot,

Realising not everything that I do must be pleased by each and everyone,

There was an anon on my ask.fm,

Telling me that to be myself and to never reform for the sake of pleasing people because not everyone will be pleased even if you've changed.

Therefore, she asked me just remain myself, my originality.

 

During the days of respite,

I've been getting along with people whom I've never stumbled upon

As well as

People whom used I used to send resentments and animosity.

This phenomena totally depicts that everything changes.

 

I've lost people whom used to adore me,

I was in total remorse.

Guess what?

I moved on.

I realised that I don't need these people to survive.

 

Lastly,

Always trust yourself.

 

Merry Christmas.

Love always,

Kahmun. 



Introduction

 

Hello fellow readers welcome to my blog once again. It's been quite some time since my last 'renovation' on my blog. As you can tell, I've altered a varied changes from blossom to a real simple and lame blog background. Since there have been a huge transformation to my blog, I ought to introduce myself in a updated version.

 

Hello, my name is Chan Kah Mun. I'm dearly addressed as Kah Mun or Carmen(whichever you fancy). I'm 16 this year and this was the worst year in my entire life. I have a younger sister who's 12 this year. Therefore, that makes me the lady in the house whenever my parents are out for profession.

 

 I liked One Direction when I was 12 so that was my aspiration of going to UK evolved. So now everyone now why I want to go to UK so badly. That was when I 12. As I'm growing, I then realise that meeting One Direction wasn't really the reason why I want to go to UK so desperately. It was actually I do love UK. Their culture, their transportation convenience, their accent and most importantly their bread. Just so you guys know, I'm obsessed with EUROPEAN BREADS. Here's a fun fact: I've been obsessed with European breads since I was 4 aha. Moving on. I love English classic hits as in like the music in the 70's and 80's. Sometimes, I do listen to the 30's but only Frank Sinatra's hits. Lastly, I love fashion. Western fashion to be exact.

 

I'm too slothful to continue the rest. So that's that! Au Revoir!

Thoughts in November

#1 Sometimes I like being encumbered in desolation and deplorable perceptions. It's an initial restraint but as time wears on, it's ravishing and somehow relishing.

#2 Sometimes I still feel glum and astounded that my relationship ended for about half a year. Well, I thought I could make it to my senior but guess that wasn't a part of God's plans. The romantic scenes that I watch on TV or in the cinema has always lamented me and if any of you ever go out on a movie day with me, you'll find that I actually get pretty subtle when a boy and girl are being separated due to some bullshits. That's when I'm actually mourning. Mourning for my memory which has been dead since the beginning of the year. Thus, tears ended up brimming at the corner of my eyes and if the tears are 'overweight' they roll down one drop at a time. The last time it occurred was when I watched The Notebook and Love, Rosie. I don't want to be a spoiler but be well prepared to shed tears when you're intended to watch both of the movies.

#3 This is a year of exception where I actually encounter the typical high school drama. I'm not sure whether I was the part of this drama well apparently I was or maybe I still am but it's ridiculous. They claim hating me because I'm being all snobbish and imposing. Snobbish: I like flaunting off my appearance. Honestly, who doesn't want to be noticed? Who doesn't want to get all the advantages? I'm just a typical girl who wants to get noticed okay, maybe not being noticed by the whole school but my friends that's all. Why would people make such trifling fuss about it? I'd definitely slap the fucking mouth(sorry for the profanity) if you say YOU DON'T WANT TO GET NOTICED BECAUSE THAT, MY FRIEND, IT'S ABSOLUTE PREPOSTEROUS. Imposing: Okay, so you claim that I'm taking advantage of you. Hello, I only take advantage of my CLOSE friends. My kind of advantage is like tasting each other meals and drinks as well as sharing the same toiletries. It's the 21st century for Pete's sake, wake up people. it's not wrong taking that kind of 'advantages' on your friends. OKAY, YEA, MAYBE I HAVE GONE OVERBOARD. SO? WHAT TO DO? YOU. PURGE. OUT. NOT ME. I DON'T CHANGE MY KIND 'ADVANTAGE' TO PLEASE YOU. Like it or not. It's my life. I determine to whether improvising. YOU don't even stand the chance.

#4 My songs of the week are Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran and High Hope by The vamps

#5 I should have stepped out of my comfort zone after all.

#6 I hate people interrupting my conversation with my friends. If you're so intimidated of people criticising you, firstly why don't you change that attitude of yours interrupting other people's conversation.

#7 sometimes I care about the criticism. Maybe some of them. I even cried listening to them at first, but then I stood up and telling myself that this is my life. I deserve a contented life. I rule my life. Not a bunch of hypocrites.

*Warning: if you're offended verbally, it's not my responsibility to comfort your pity little heart. Get your heads held up high and leave this blog immediately.*

Bucket List (Adventures)

Hello readers! Welcome to the month of November and back to my blog! Today I'd like to share my bucket list of adventures. I'm an adventurer. I love venturing myself peril even if it's terrifying to me and the adventures are way out of my comfort zone. Let's begin!

 P/s some of the adventures that have been scratched off I may want to do them again:)

 

1. Participating on a 8km marathon

(This was actually my first run in my entire living. Wasn't really proud of my pace but at least I made it to the finished line :D)

 

2. Standard Chartered Run 2014

( My very first half marathon run and I tell you it was terrific and euphoric experience for me. Again, I wasn't satisfied with my pace because I completed my race in 3 hour 2 minutes time. THEREFORE, I DEMAND A RERUN.)

 

3. Riding on world's scariest roller coaster even though I'm afraid of heights

 

4. Scuba diving

( That's why I learnt swimming when I was 12)

 

5. Being hung upside down in the sky endearing the sunset in Miami or Hawaii or maybe even in Redang)

 

6. Swimming with a baby shark

( Honestly this has been scribbled on my bucket list since I was 7. Due to my lack of swimming ability, I neglected this adventure until I learnt swimming. Thank god I listened to my mum this time, attending swimming lessons. I might have immensely repent and regret to myself if I spurned her offer.)

 

7. Taking control of the helicopter

 

( Well, as if I have a pilot boyfriend)

 

8. SURF BOARDING

 

 

 

( Cladding on my sexy bikini and go on surf boarding with my hair cascading)

 

 

 

9. Takeing off the plane on my own.

 

(My very first time was boarding the Firefly airline from Penang to Subang Jaya airport yay)

 

10. Jumps off from the cliff and dive into the sea/lake

 

11. Going on a one day trip to the woods to watch the sunset

 

12. Go on sledding or dog sledding

 

13. Rock climbing

(Did on a fake rock when I was 14 at 1u's rock climbing centre. But I WANT TO GO ON A REAL ONEEE)

 

14. Paragliding in Miami or Hawaii

( Even though I have a fear of heights)

 

15. Parachuting jump

 

 

16. Goes on a white water rafting

 

Last but not least,

 

 

These are my major adventures that I would like to venture or explore. Fingers crossed I would be able to accomplish all of them before my time comes to the end. That's all for now. Till next time and Happy Autumn!

 



Rocktober

Hello everyone! It's been exactly a month since my last update and I genuinely apologise for the long respite. October was the beginning of me evolving into a movie mania. I watched 4 movies in this month and it was astounding because I wasn't really a fan of the cinemas in the past but then I turned over a new leaf! Believe me it was really laborious for me to discover movie partners in my vicinity. 1. People here are lame and they don't really spend too much money on cinemas. 2. My parents don't like watching movies because they tend to get dizzy after watching a 2 hour long movie(urgh, old folks) 3. No transportation( the most common problem that emerges at my age)

19/10
For those who have been hanging out with me several times, it's absolutely scarce for me to volunteer transportation. Guess what? Today was actually the very first time that my dad was actually willing to pick me and my other 2 friends out. Unbelievable right? The thing is, my sister always has Sunday school(yes, I'm a Christian for those who don't have in mind) on Sunday in ttdi which is located near Selangor's most prestigious and rather extravaganza shopping malls. It is absolutely convenient for my dad to drop us any of the shopping mall. Therefore, without any doubts we went for 1u (euphoria cheers)
Then we decided to watch both Annabelle and Dracula Untold.

Here's what exactly happened when we were watching Annabelle:
We bought a family package combo of one large sized popcorn, one regular sized popcorn, 2 Pepsi cups and a mineral Of course I took the large popcorn and the mineral water because I don't drink frizzy drinks. So then we settled down at our designated(lol) seats. We went for washrooms in two. The corridor along the washroom was scrupulously grotesque. It was only the two of us walking along the eerie corridor. Moreover, the washrooms was far more awe than the corridor. We quickly got ourselves done and accompanied my other friend to the washroom. I mean there's definitely no way that I'd leave her alone walking to the washroom right? After all, we all girls. There's a common thing about us when watching movies and that is we tend to talk. Maybe to dissipate our fears a little? When the plot developed horrorfically, we screamed and shrieked and I think all 3 of us wrapped our heads into our jackets. My two other friends got scared even more when the fact that there was no one sitting besides them as it was only the three of us sitting on this row. After the movie ended, everyone in the hall scurried and scramped instantly as if there was a nasty prospective hm.

So then we went for lunch at Seoul Garden for a barbeque as well as steamboat. It was quite a lavish and ostentatious meal but somehow I didn't feel upset for spending my money on this meal:)

Here's a little treat of what happened when we were watching Dracula Untold:
It was a fascinating and thrilling movie. Luke Evans who's the Prince and also the Dracula is really charming despite of his age. Some of you might have guessed it right and precisely! I was fangirling him on some of his epic parts where he glared at the villain. Oh and I was quite surprised that it was almost a full seat in Dracula Untold's hall. Overall, it was intriguing movie and I highly recommend to watch!

26/10
We went to 1U again. Even though I have gone to 1u for a zillion times, I still couldn't seem to construe the whole shopping mall. I'm just really bad at acknowledging maps. So yeah, today we were going to Ouija and *drum rolls* Love, Rosie! *fangirls simpering*

Behind the scenes of watching Ouija:
Surprisingly Ouija was only rm7 that day but Love, Rosie was rm16. Whoa, it's like half the price technically. So then we went to the washroom as usual two by two. Guess what? The corridor was as eerie as the last time we went there. We thought it would be crowded but then it was the other way around. The only thing that varied was that there was a salesman on duty in the counter which is a half mile away from the washroom. As usual, wrapping yourselves up with jackets are essential. I forgot to bring my denim jacket but I brought my vocabulary notebook which is repleted with the vocabularies that I find in books I've read. I used that to entrench myself from treating myself into some gore. I also kept stuffing my mouth with popcorns to distract myself. My review on Ouija I have to say its story line is definitely better than Annabelle. Hands down. But then the horror level, well it's an average.

Can I have a hot guy friend like Alex? 

IT'S LOVE ROSIE! *pixies and fairies are fluttering in my stomach* I have been longing to watch this movie for a week and here it is! Here's how I fangirl throughout the entire movie:

As everyone knows, I've been going gaga over Sam clafin aka Finnick Odair the hunk which the entire universe was goggling about. Due to his minor scenes in Catching Fire, I didn't really notice him and back then I was only blinded by Peeta so yes I'm on Peeta just so you know:p Okay so two weeks before watching the movie, I was stalking someone else's tweet and I stumbled upon a link to Love Rosie's trailer and out of my curiousity, I watched. I ended up gasping as my adrenaline was gushing and I was literally melted when I heard Sam Clafin's deep and husky voice. The initial move I did was: MUST INFORM SAOW CHING AND YINFUN. Undoubtedly they had been so hooked up with my bae too hahaha. Unfortunately, the latter couldn't join us for the movie😔. We bought couple seats to watch Love Rosie and I'm still in ruminant that why does the ticket price cost 16bucks but oh well the price is worthy since a hot guy is paid to watch. I was literally shrieking and tittering and simpering during the entire movie. Hot, caring but a little asshole best guy friend. Honestly who wouldn't dream of having such best guy friend? I also swore profanity thanks to an asshole and two bitches. URGH. I nearly had the urge of tearing my hair apart. But that wasn't it. I was really pissed at Malaysia government's discretion views. discrete of kissing scenes really boiled me up. Rosie and Alex's kiss wasn't even that intense and I doubt they even did french kiss. This discretion has kept me puzzling whether did Rosie and Alex kiss during Rosie's 18th birthday. I'm really pissed until now. Ridiculous.

Okay moving on. There was a part that really teared me up. Well, I wasn't exactly got teared up but there were tears brimming in my bottom line of my eye. There was a scene which is drawing to the end of the movie where Rosie preached in Alex's wedding dinner(say what? I know, I was swearing the whole time too) and the content was really overwhelming. Her face was tear stained when she saw Alex dancing with his newly wedded wife. She busted out of the the back of the door and went straight to the top floor when her daughter stomped out of the dancing hall. Alex rushed behind Rosie. This part also teared me up because it brought me back a lot of memories. I was neither depressed nor glum, I was merely missing the memories:)
Love Rosie is an absolutely tremendous romance film and it deserves a standing ovation and coveted awards. I really love the plot and it's totally relevant to me. It's hilarious, overwhelmed and loved. It's a highly recommended film to watch if or when you're in a relationship or were in a relationship.

Upcoming MUST watch movies:

-Mocking Jay P1( TEAM PEETA)

-Night at the museum 3

-The Maze Runner( if I'm allowed to watch in Penang which it's prohibited)

That's all for my long update about my Rocktober. Hope you guys make it to the end of this post and till next time xx.

This was taken in the premier of Love Rosie and the dress Lily was wearing really captivated me and she looked really gorgeous with it:)

Welcome back!

'I wish none of you were sad.'

 



Hello dear readers from all around the world! After several months of recovery and resilient from depression I'm finally and officially back in blogging publicly! Past several months had been a disaster to me mentally, I couldn't restrain my livid and my despair. Therefore to avoid any misunderstandings and repercussions I had to lock it up. Throughout the 'isolation' of blogging publicly, I've learnt to bare with my own anger rationally. Sometimes words of bristling do not really convey my feelings. But anyhow, I'm back blogging publicly so I hope everyone enjoy reading about my life xoxo.

Absurdity

 

You never know how much it lacerates until you find out that the person whom you always have in mind that he or she will never fall for anyone tells you that he or she has a crush.

You know it sucks for havin an unrequited love. 

I wish I can go to England and start a new life there or maybe embark a new love journey. 

I wish that I'd be involved in a car crash that's so mutated that it triggers my memory. 

I wish that I can always be in my dream.

I wish that everyone would stop judging each other

I wish that I can get out of here.

I wish that I hadn't fallen in love at the first place.

Memories (Part 3)

Ravishing Conversation between a non typical and mainstream/mainstream couple

 

 

Scenario 1-when we were at the playground
Boy: You know what? I've an omen that I marrying you in the future.
Girl: WHAT? What did you just mutter?
Boy: Arh well nothing. It's great that you didn't hear it. I was so stupid hahaha.
Actually the girl did hear what he had said. She just wanted to hear it twice from him. Even though it was the 2nd time he told her that perception. The first time was during form2 and the second time was the end of form3.

Scenario 2-when we were at the slide and we were snogging the girl quitted her lips from the boy slightly few inches away from his lips and said
Boy: I'm sorry for the wrongdoings I've done to you in the past. I'm sorry for not texting you. I'm sorry for neglecting you.
Girl: It's alright. What matter's that you're here with me now.
The girl then leaned towards him and shut him up.

Scenario 3-Double date
Girl: Why are your hands always behind my head?
Boy: Because I love it that way and holding hands are too mainstream.
Eventually they didn't hold their hands at all. The boy's hands were wrapped around the girl's waist. Gripping her tightly.

Scenario 4-Before the taekwondo lesson the boy led the girl out to the end of brp7 and had a chat. (2012)
Girl: Mum says if I ever get straight A's I'd be going to Singapore.
Boy: If you leave what am I supposed to do?
Girl: You can always hang around with your mates.
Boy: Life's nothing without you.
Girl: Don't worry I'll be back.

Scenario 5-The girl's house (2013)
Boy: It's been a year and you've ameliorated. Especially your kissing skills. Whoa.

Scenario 6- In science lab (2012)
The girl was so wearied she had no choice but to lay on her table and sleep. A few strands of her hair had entangled around the corner of her mouth.
Boy: Look at you. Eating your hair again. Stop eating!
The boy then tucked the strand of hair back to her ear pinna. She was smiling in her sleep.

Scenario 7- The boy's house. (2012)
The boy and the girl were standing in his room eyes were locked against each other all of the sudden the boy planted a kiss on her lips. The girl was blank and speechless.
Girl: OMG, THAT'S MY FIRST KISS.
Boy: Aren't you mad? Why aren't you slapping me? O.o
Girl: Nah, it's fine. I trust you.

Scenario 8- Terengganu trip (2012)
The boy and the girl went on a trip together. He tendered the girl gingerly during the whole trip. He literally paid everything for the girl. The 100 bucks that the girl asked from her father not even 2 bucks were spent. Yet the boy's expenses were all spent entirely. There is a shallow sea near the chalet that we stayed. The boy went in first but the girl was standing awkwardly by the side staring him. "What are you standing there? Come in?" "I can't…… Our phones are in the pocket." The girl's voice was inaudible by the ocean's loud clap. The boy approached to where she was and took by her hand. The girl refused to move further until he realised something has been going odd. "Aiyorrr, why didn't you tell me that our phones are in your pocket? Give me the phones and get changed into darker coloured clothes." The girl went back in to get changed and was ready to get back in the water. They huddled themselves together in the water and the girl said 'I love you so much.' The boy seemed to have startled by her vow yet seemingly rejoiced by replying 'I love you so much too.' Then the couple spent the whole trip sticking together and never let each other behind. The boy and the girl were a pair of star-crossed lover whom everyone in the school acknowledged.

Scenario 9- On the girl's bed. (2013)
The girl laid her head on the boy's fairly muscularly built chest and they started talking.
Girl: What do you think is going to happen to us if we break up?
Boy: We'll be strangers.
Girl: Why can't we be friends?
Boy: Looking at you and thinking back all those memories sobers me. Being strangers is like being a passer. You come and go. The pain is not as severe as it is being friends.
The girl clutched his shirt perplexedly and with forebodings consequently tears were rolling in her eyes…

Extras: - I wrote this because I miss the memories. Lately, I haven't been thinking of any of these memories and I have to pay tribute to my church mates and Jesus's help. Thanks to them I'm ameliorating and modifying myself spiritually and mentally.

 

- Even though we don't have the ability to turn back time, I still feel gratitude and blessed to have you in my life. People come and leave in your life. Guess you're one of the people whom needed to be "budged out" of my life. It's alright, I've already accepted this attest with an arrant open-heartedly:) 

-You know what? Lately I've been hanging out with le churchies and I really love them very much. We're all brothers and sister in Christ. They really treat me like their little sister therefore I'm so pleased to have them in my life. Thanks guys for everything. I would want to hang out more often with you people💚

Goodbye KahMun and Sylvester. I'll always remember this loving and eccentric and sweet couple:)

Amazing Grace †

Peace Haven xoxo

Hey guys! I would apologize for the long respite of blogging. I've actually written a draft and it has been neglected there for a few weeks. Anyways, today I'm going to share with all of you about my March Retreat with the TTDI youths:)

Everyone is familiar with me going to the camp. The reason why I recruited as a member of the camp is chiefly because I was really in solicitous of seeking Jesus's help. For the past few months I had been assailed and dross in depression. I thought I would acclimatise this darkness but I was wrong. I couldn't even inure to the sight of me being encumbered in the navy of depression. Therefore I decided to seek for Jesus. Eventually, He is right. If you've faith in Jesus, His love will heal anything demonic.

The camp was held at Peace Haven, Genting. I would like to emphasize the word 'haven', because it is a haven. It's spacious, serves delicious food, provides clean toilets and most importantly it has a free Wi-Fi connection! Funnily we went there by cars. I was in the same car as the speaker(Uncle Kaet San), my 2 friends. Surprisingly, I wasn't asleep in the car. I appeared to be having scintillating conversation with the people in the car. We had reached our destination by 11.00am.

When I trod on Genting's road, I could see mists. It was a cloudy and misty day in Genting. As usual, we were all gathered in the lobby to do carry out the 'ice breaker' activity. I know all of you cringed when you stumble upon that game. You must be thinking, 'great, here comes the lamest and stupidest game.' THAT WAS WHAT I LITERALLY THOUGHT ABOUT. On the contrary, the ice breaker in my church is completely different than the one we always do in school. Basically you have to say 3 statements out loud to everyone else. Out of these 3 statements only 2 are true. The 2 people who are standing next to you will have to guess which one is the incorrect one. "I like sleeping. I like eating and I like jogging." These were the 3 statements that I conjectured. Idk why my statements were the first one among the 3 friends who had made them cracked into laughters. They were startled by the fact that I don't like eating but enjoy jogging. That cycle went on and it got funnier and funnier. After the ice breaker everyone somehow started approaching me especially the guys ORZ. Then we were all assigned to our rooms respectively.

After having our lunch we had a game to play. It was a maze. Each game there will be 4-5ppl entering the maze. While I was waiting for my turn, some guys came and sat next to me. I was rather nettled by one of the guys in church as he was budging his butt to me. Do you know how annoying to have a stranger doing that to you? Clippers… Anyways it was finally my turn to play! Basically there were strings connected to each stacks of chairs. You have to follow the string's path to find your exit. You''re blindfolded in the game. Grace(my chuch friend) she spun each and everyone of us before we started. I wended my way to the exit. I splashed on an aluminum foil of water then I yelled 'ohmygoodness! Ewww' When I was gripping the strings somehow the strings were applied with glue! "Congratulations KahMun, you've reached your exit." When I took off my blindfold, what an astonishment that I was the first one to reach! I was overjoyed!! When everyone had participated in the game, Daryl(the full-time church committee) explained the aim of the game. Basically there were 2 exists in the room. One exist is on the left which might have blighted you to hell and the other one is located on the right which might have rendered you to the Lord. Surprisingly, I ended up going to heaven! Hahaha. Why? Because the way to Lord's heaven is a path embeded with arduous and onerous hindrance. I don't think any of you would fathom this so I should stop explaining lol. Then we had our 1st session with the speaker that is about Conviction. Honestly, I had only been heeded to his attention for 20 minutes then the rest the clouds in my mind were scudded to some place else. After having our dinner we had our 2nd session fondly known as "Commitment". And again I hadn't been paying attention to it all. In fact, I rested my eyes when listening to the speaker. I know I shouldn't be doing this but I just couldn't help it. Then we were scattered to our groups to have a discussion about the particular topic. The only thing that I remembered sharing is about 'hatred'. I told them briefly about the 2 people that I have resentments towards to. I didn't know why I'd blab out such top secret but still I felt relieved to be able to share it out. Here comes the fun part: My group members left to their rooms and I was sitting on the couch surfing the net. Then, one of the twins, Colin, he came down with his tab. The awkwardness that pervaded around us was extremely overwhelming. We were staring at our electronic devices for quite some time and then he finally made the first up and started the conversation. Believe it or not I actually told him about the girl I hated. He asked for her name and I got scared for 1sec when he said he thinks he knows her. I was like 'whaaaat.' When we were talking gleefully all of the sudden, 2 of his friends, his brother and the boy from chong hwa came down. They ralked so loudly and ignored my existence. I sunk into the phone talking to Yinfun. Seriously girl, thank you so much for talking to me during the camp! Idk what to do if you weren't talking to me. Then the boys started talking to me. Yes I was the only girl in the lobby. After that, me, Colin, Craig and Rui Xian went for supper together. Hmm.

The ritual ceremonies went on. Today I did something that I've never done before-meditation. Christian meditation is totally different than the other religion's meditation. It's the time where we talk, think and spend time with God. It was a ravishing and relishing experience. If you guys are interested of how Christian meditates do look for me! I'd be more than happy to recount my experience! In the late afternoon after our photo session, we had a game called 'Captain Ball.' Basically captain ball is a combination of netball(bola jaring) and basketball. Everyone in church had been desiring me to join the game especially Rui Xian. He made me promise to join the game! I had tones of fun during the game and guess what? Everyone was startled by my shooting skills:p The way I shot is exactly the same way as a basketball player shots. Everyone was totally amazed muahaha. "Good job KahMun! Nice shot KahMun!" Then we had our dinner together. After the praise and worship, we had our 4th session:Conflicts. When the speaker ended the speech, one of my youths shredded into tears. Perhaps due to the family conflicts he's stumbling upon currently. As usual, we discussed our topic at the lobby. One of my members which is also my closest friend in church welled in tears as she talked about her grandparents. That moment I felt gratitude having such divine family members. And again, I brought the conflicts between me and her. This time, I commenced of telling more and more about myself. After that, I stayed at the lobby and again Colin, Craig, Rui Xian and some other ppl dropped by. They kept passing comments on my being awkward and quiet. I snorted every time they said so. We chatted until 12.00am and we decided to head to our dorms and all of the sudden they invited me to their dorm for a little chit chat. Back then I didn't think of "anything" because we Christians believe that we're all brothers and sisters in Christ. They thought Francine(my church girl friend) would show up but then eventually I ended up as the only girl in the room. The atmosphere was rather eerie because we didn't know each other well. We played poker on the bed and Craig was teaching me how to play. I bet he was annoyed by my obtuse learning. We chatted until late 1.30am. When I went back to my dorm, my roommates were fast asleep. I felt great but bad at the same time. I felt great because I got to hang out with the guys until late 1.30am which was unprecedented. At the same I felt bad because I didn't get to sit down and have a heart-to-heart talk with my roommates. Overall, I did have fun. Hehe

The next morning, when we were having our final session:Continuity. I literally dozed off when the speaking was droning on and apparently I wasn't the only one. I felt great when Craig sat next to me. He helped me with my bible as I had difficulties finding the chapters in the Bible lol. At 12.00pm we checked out of the dorms and waiting for our ride. While we were waiting, I was again buried myself in my phone and Colin showed up with his ear on the earphone. "What are you listening to?" I asked. Normal guys will be like: Oh it's *the name of the song. BUT Christian boys will not say a word and terus took off his other earphone to your ear. That was what Colin did. I was really shocked. The. Song he was listening was John Mayer's. One of my favourite male singers. "Friends,Lovers or Nothing" that's the song we were listening to. I downloaded it lol. I MEANT NO OTHER INTENTIONS YO. So yeah then we departed to home. Then when I had arrived at the door's of my home sweet home there was a new family member welcomed me-IPAD MINI! Yes, my dad bought me an Ipad mini as my achievement in Pmr even though the results didn't turn out the way I expected.

I really had a flourishing and marvellous time in church camp. People started heeding my attention, caring and tendering for my existence. The resentments that I have towards Samantha has subsided but Yennyi's I have to say no. I still have hatred towards her. I pray to Lord that He would give me His strength and love to conquer the resentments that I have towards not only her but everyone else. Thank you Lord for rendering me such a divine life here on earth. Amen!

 

Extras: -I went swimming with Karen and JingLin on 28/3/14. It was a stupendous and deranged     swim with them. We'll have a sleepover party soon. I vow that. ♥

 

- I made a YouTube video with Xiupei. We're not only Workout partners but we're also YouTube Video partners. We clatter and rant in Cantonese and we both enjoy doing make-ups. ♥

 

- Throughout this holiday, the only person that I miss is YinFun. I miss fangirling with her, laughing ludicrously with her. Also thank you for talking to me on Line when I was submerged in the air of awkwardness during camp. xoxo

 

 

My favourite photo ♥
Credits to the fabulous Kah Mun

 

Rhapsody

Hey guyssss. First off, I would like to apologise for the delay of my post as I was having quite a busy week. This week was one of the best weeks that I have ever savoured so far this year. My vivacity, my diversion, my complaisant are incessantly revived. Bleakness has been drifted away. I had been drown in the ocean of depression and desolation for 2 months thanks to all of your lovely, talented,'beautiful' and 'angelic' Godness and Sylvester aka your so called 'Vester'. I've always hated that name. No. I DETEST, HATRE AND RESENT THAT NAME. How would ppl even address him in such a horrible, disgusting and a ghoul name? Been crying over spilt milks. Been skulking over slightest trifling trivial. I really hated myself. Things worsened when I was diagnosed with the Dengue fever and was hospitalised for 4days3nights. The days in the hospital was a real torture. I had no companion at all. Merely the electronic devices were there for me. I was utterly depressed because of loneliness. After that, I was discharged from the hospital and had a week of respite due to my debility. Again, I was sunk in solitary and I even hated all of my friends. I had the perception that I have no friends after all. When I needed them, there were nowhere to be found. I went berserk of all of my friends including you guys lol. BUT, all of these negativity were vanished ever since I resumed to school. I realised that all of you did care about my existence and I was really gratified of your concerns. Therefore on this post I'd be talking about many things. Enjoy!

(14.2.14-Forever)

The first person that I would really like to thank is YinFun. Remember there was a line where I hated everyone because of your ignorance and negligence? Yeah well she's the only one that I never felt detested. She had been there for me since the day I was absent. She had been chatting with me endlessly every single day. I was really worried about her academics but turned out she aced all of her subjects. I really thank God for that. There was a day where the both of us got drunk at 12.30am and we started 'singing' kyungsoo's part in Growl visually. We even did the hand sign thingy. Therefore, we should totally get drunk someday!!!!!!! Don't be startled and flinched if you see me and Yinfun singing and dancing to Growl at the street or Xiupei's house someday.Hahahahaha. I earnestly will never forget that moment. She's a really fun person to hang out with but the society just never acknowledges her… Sadddd… Anyways I'm really fortunate that we got closer this year. She also made my day when she purposely came to the canteen just to give me a hug. I was really overwhelmed! Thank you so much I'm really truly blessed xoxo. We should talk more in school toooo. If you want to be an idiot for a day, I'd be honoured to play the act of an idiot with you too. Have I ever mentioned that she was the one who sought my cheerfulness back? I couldn't help myself laughing every time when we're together hahahahaha. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.

1.3.14

JingLin and Karen decided to visit me unexpectedly. I had no idea why but I'm really glad that they did. I felt superb when JingLin told me that they were going to visit on Saturday. Deep inside my heart, I thought whoa, even though it's been 2 years since we're separated, we can still maintain our friendship. Therefore I believe that we would have bonded an eternal friendship. We took a lot of selfies: weird ones and pretty ones. They even tried on my clothes! They appeared to be fond of my closet hahahaha. I don't want to blab much cause you-know-I-know right? We had lots of gossip sessions and we enjoyed it. When talking to them it was as though time flowed back in 2012, where the 3 of us stick together and hang around with each other. We had several outings and I honestly missed them so much. You guys are really awesome. I have tones of things to share with you guys and I'm sure JingLin has a lot to say too. Thank you so much for dropping by and we should totally have a sleep over night too. I can't wait for the release of The Amazing Spiderman Part2 and The Fault In Our Stars. LET'S GO AND WATCH.

The first week of school:

Everyone was rejoiced to see my return. They rendered me hugs and concerns about my health. I liked JingLin's and Yinfun's hugs the most. I liked JingLin's because she's a meaty hugger! She hugged me tightly every time we stumble upon each other. Whereas Yinfun's hugs are somehow repleted with candid genuineness. Of course I love each and everyone's hugs. People had been asking me how it was like to have dengue and my feelings during the 4days3night stay in the hospital. I had also been recounting the story over and over again. All of the lessons in school went smoothly. I completed most of the homeworks except for English. See I love this subject the most but my teacher somehow doesn't like the subject. She doesn't even fathom most of the words. For example: There has been a word 'void' inscribed on your English test paper. All of my classmates(excluding me) didn't know the meaning of it. Guess what my teacher said. She said the meaning of 'void' is vacant. I went livid. "NO, TEACHER IT'S 'WITHOUT'." I literally spat the shit out of her face. She somehow didn't seem compatible with me and gave me a hot glare. Man, it's obviously that I got the meaning correct but the teacher didn't seem please about me. The other thing I hate my English teacher is that she somehow underestimates me. We were doing our summary in class on Tuesday. I grabbed Jiayin's book and copied right in front of her eyes. "Hey girl, what are doing? Copying heh?" "Teacher, I'm just copying the points, I'd modify the words." I sounded demanding. In the end, teacher trod at my place and checked my summary. She was speechless. She perused my modified words and kept reassuring the words. I was like erm do you really understand what I'm writing or handwriting is too ugly to be fathomed? Eventually, she gave me 5 out 5 marks for my language cause I modified and amended most of the words. Most people only rewarded with 3/4 out of 5. See, this is why people, never ever underestimate me. Especially English teachers. They see me as a slothful little brat who does nothing but copying. But hell, when it comes to writing, you'd get blown away by my masterpiece.

During some of the lessons, I tend to be talkative. Like really talkative. My mouth just can't be shut especially when sitting next to Xiupei. Cantonese dialects are audible in class. We laugh, we yell, we talk like there's no tomorrow. These days, we have happened to talk profusely as we've discovered our mutual interests: Fitness and Workout. There was a day out of the 5 days in school we literally discussed everything we acknowledge about Workout and Fitness. We are totally motivated because there's this force pulling us to the gravity that we need to be hard core. Therefore, we call ourselves the Workout Freaks and Workout Companions. But to her and everyone, I'm a more hard core and intense workout and fitness girl. Recently I have been working out a lot. Dawn till dusk. No joke man. I wake up at 5.40am in the morning just to do my abs workout. Then in the evening, I'd go jogging and do my abs workout and my legs workout. I'm doing all these not because I'm afraid to gain weight but because I want to be slim and slender like I looked like because getting the Dengue fever.

I'm currently poring over a book intriguingly named as 'The Fault In Our Stars'. It's a book where fictional romance begins. It's a very stupid book but I like it. I love the lines in the book. It's a metaphor: You put the killing between your teeth, but you don't give the power to do its killing." This is my favourite line and JingLin knows the true meaning it:3 I don't want to write out too much details and points of this book cause it'll take me a whole blog post for me to do so. Carry on. Recently I've been stalking girls. Not ordinary girls but Victoria's Secret Model girls. Yeap. Drooling right? There's this model affectionately named Candice Swanepoel and Barbara Palvin. Wtf, they're like the most beautiful girl in the world. They literally melted me. Ohmygosh, I whined and wailed whenever looking at their photos. Impeccable and respondent in all dresses and bras. GOD. I WANT TO BE LIKE THEM. Therefore, Chanyeol, Barbara Palvin and Candice Swanepoel are my new addiction. GOD. THEY'RE LIKE A PERFECTION TO ME. HOW CAN I NOT BE CAPTIVATED. ALTHOUGH, I may like Victoria's Secret Model doesn't mean that I'm fond of their products. Tbh, I'm not a fan of their products. I'm a fan of every branded stores but I just don't like Victoria's Secret products. I just can't get it why hmm. Oh yeah I'm recently "recruited" in One Republic's fanbase!!! Woohoo! I always listen to their music when I'm editing my blog even now I guess.

In conclusion, this has been a joyful and fruitful week! I have been vivacious and cheerful all week long and it is all thanks to you people for making this to happen:3 Thank you for giving me such an awesome week. I love each and every one of you here. Thank you for reading my super long post xoxo.


That's all for now. Ciao•Xoxo ♥

Barbara Palvin my lady.

 

I literally gawped and melted. She's really smoking hot.

This is Candice Swanepoel. She's a South African girl. She's also my grace.

This is my idiot, Chanyeol.

Things That I Adore

Hey guys I'm back again! Sorry for the frequent updates as I've been really tedious and commodious these days due to my absence in school. During the days of respite, I've been doing a lot of thinking. I've been discovering myself to be precise. That explains why I've been blogging about myself. Presently, I'm going to share another piece of me. Hope you guys will like it!:)

Things That I Adore-

Ⅰ. Significant things that I adore:

▲ Flowery Summer dresses as they're flimsy and super comfortable.

▲ Spaghetti straps,shorts and skirts as they're swaggy, casual and befit my style.

▲ Earrings, necklaces, bracelets and sunglasses. Unfortunately, I have never had a pair of sunglasses. Dang.

▲ Books. The smell of old books especially Harry Potter. I adore reading fantasies and romance.

▲ My hair. Though sometimes it looks like a hay stack, still adore it as my hair is naturally straight and bronze:3

▲ Flower headbands. Because it adorns with flowers and I adore flowers!

▲ Beach. Its sandy shore and the rhythmical pummeling sound of the waves is the music to my ears. When the sun descends into the horizon, it is as though witnessing the reborn of the mother nature. I really adore the beach and I solemnly hope that I can go strolling along the beach with my girls. Xoxo.

▲ London. It'll be the place where all of my dreams will be accomplished. It'll be the place where my canty and vivacity revived. It'll be the place where I'd spend the rest of my life there. It'll be where I can finally outshine myself.

▲ Europe. I want to travel around Europe alone. I want to savour their historical and artificial places.

▲ Bookshop. One of my favorite places to date. I remembered distinctly that on my double date syl and I went for Borders instead of going to the boutiques. The both of us were utterly engrossed and immersed in the books. We were totally attached to them. We're a pair of odd couple who'd date at the bookshop. Ppl might find us lame but this is us. I enjoyed that period of time in the bookshop with him. I was separated with him for quite some time. He thought that I was lost so he called to check on me. It appeared that I was lost in the avalanche of books. Boy I must have scared the shit off him. Hahaha. Henceforth, if any of you guys have ever wanted to date me, well the bookshop is definitely your choice. If I have suddenly disappeared please seek for me at the English section. I'd be there alone procuring the books:)

▲ Makeups. Not massive but a tinge of makeups will do. I have a pair of huge eyes(vanity strikes). Ppl love doing the make-ups for me and I should be extremely proud of that. I'm a slothful person. I hate to do things on my own yes even make-ups. Therefore, all of my make-ups are practically done by my mum. She's raptured of putting on make-ups for me as much as she applies on herself. Well like mother like daughter:D

▲ Facial. I ADORE DOING FACIAL. Especially Decleor's assistance. Don't get me wrong ppl, I'm not affluent. I'm merely affordable to this expenses that's all:) Even if I am not affordable, I'd still go for facial as my face looks utterly horrible without facial. Orz.

▲ Polka Dots. Polka dotted bras to be exact.

▲ Watches. I adore them! In fact I have a few branded watches Swatch, Baby-G, Solvil via Titus and Bum. My dad always scolds me for buying them. Duhhh.

▲ Swaroskwi, Swatch, Charles and Keith, La Senza, Decleor, Dorothy&Pankins, Pandora, Coach etc.

▲ Sleeping. Generally, who doesn't?

▲ Classic hits! I super adore oldies such as Bee Gees, The Beatles, MLTR, Billy Joel, Cyndi Lauper, All 4 one, Westlife, Back Street Boys, Frank Ocean, Michael Bolton, Whitney Houston, Amy Winehouse etc. I can't remember all of them lol.

▲ K-pop. EXO. CHANYEOL-THE-DUMBASS. LUHAN-THE-DEER.

▲ English pop. One Republic and some mainstream artists.

▲ GLEE. I miss Cory Monteith. DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES.

▲ New Zealand Natural's ice cream :3

▲ Talking random stuffs with Yinfun.

▲ Adores braids. I hope someone would braid for me hahahaha.

▲ Laughs. I really love laughing. Laughing is my remedy and it's something what I do best.

▲ Has a chimera of holding a wedding at the beach and having my girls as my bridesmaids :**

▲ Fish. I adore eating them. Fish is my favourite food.

Ⅱ Little Things That I Adore:

♥ Ruffles my hair affectionately and whisper to my ear that I have a very beautiful hair.

♥ Writes me a very long and warm message when I'm feeling down in the dumps. So far only Pei Chuen has ever "succoured" my difficulty.

♥ Furtively slips a letter in my pencil box or in my bag.

♥ Writes something publicly about me. Oh I really love it but I hardly receive one. It's only me who's doing all these shits.

♥ Hugs me every time.

♥ Addresses me as 'Mun Mun'. That's my nickname which my family members have been calling me.  Tbh I don't really like to be called as 'babe'… Mun Mun will do… Dohhh.

♥ Writes a really long post about me without me saying. So far nobody has ever done besides me urging them to. Because I'm nobody to you ppl.

♥ Shares an endless conversation with me and only Jiayin is capable of that. But these days I've been having endless conversation with yinfun… She's been here for me ever since I was admitted to the hospital. It's like she was there lively talking to me when I was ill. I could feel her presence. It was as though she was the only friend who knew what I'm going through… No one has ever made me feel that way. Thank you girl xoxo.

♥ Attempts a surprise visit. So far I have yet to receive such honour.

♥ Posts pictures of me and you/Make me as your profile picture.

♥ Prepares extra food for me. So far only my girls have ever done that. I think JingLin has done that before too… Hmm

♥ Kneads my back and back hugs me startledly.

♥ Stalks me. It's weird but I love ppl stalking me. I'm insignificant in your eyes so yeap no stalkers.

♥ Receiving little gifts. Honestly who doesn't love this shit? Yet again, I'm too lousy to have one.

♥ Receiving big gifts. My uncle from England he bought me a dress and he perceived the idea of buying me a pair of High heels as I always 'borrow' them from my aunt. Guess he must have been annoyed or pitied me because of my poverty. Hahahah. Uncle Kevin, though you're not reading this I love you and the dress you bought xoxo.

♥ Calls me/Confide to me when any of you feeling despondent. Yet again, nobody is willing to do so. Nobody has ever willing to share your difficulties with me. It's always me who start the conversation. Hello, I'm trying to help you. I have never intended to pry your privacy. I just want you all to know that I'm here for you. That's all. It's sad to know that I care for each and everyone of you but you guys? Not so much. When I was admitted to the hospital nobody has ever intended to drop by. Nobody. Imagine if Samantha was admitted. My my all of the schoolmates or even you guys would be perplexing or worried to death. I'm so pathetic aren't I? It's even funnier that one of my girls don't even know that I was admitted until the day I was officially discharged from the hospital. HAHAHA. THIS IS SO FUNNY. Applaud friends. Applaud to my piety,debility and solitude. Cheers. Why? Because I'm not important.

♥ Questioned. I really love being questioned. You guys can literally ask me anything yes even about my past with syl. I can technically blurt out everything.

♥ Ties my shoelaces. Fixes my hair. Fixes my shirt. Grasps my hand during camp. *Flashbacks*

♥ Takes selfies with me/ Takes photos of me secretly/ Takes silly pictures with me even though I know that I'm ugly.

♥ Gets drunk with me till late night. ( Yinfun, you know what I meant hahahaha)


That's all for now. Au Revoir•Xoxo

#2YearsWithChanyeol

It's been 2years since you've come to the entertainment podium. It's only been 5months since I've admired you. But these 5months I've been treating you like my boyfriend. Like I've mentioned before, you and him share almost the same personalities.

Idiotic. Dumb. Humorous.

Before you, I actually liked Tao. I was really swooning on Tao. As I got to know Tao, apparently he doesn't turn out to be my dream guy. Therefore, I had never ever once treat him as my boyfriend. Tao was just only my infatuation. I started noticing you since Mama era. Due to your hair, I hated you lol. One day, you penetrated through my dream for the first time. You were sitting next to me complimenting on my beauty and my cuteness. You approached me. Your milky musculature totally captivated my attention. And your bubbly attitude charmed me. Ever since that day, I started to be your fan because somehow this dream perceiving me that I like guys like you, Chanyeol. Days wore on with me swooning and adoring Chanyeol.

One fine day, you came back to my dream. This time was rather different. It took place at a beach. Somehow you were there along with Sehun. Lol. I was in the sea soaking myself and IㅡKissedㅡChanyeol unexpectedly. Tremulous and perplexed gasp from the vicinity were audible. After planting a light kiss on Chanyeol's lips, I don't remember what happened next. All I could remember was, I was tittering and giggling like a girl who just had her first kiss. 😊

This is my story on how exactly I fall in love with this idiot. The story is quite pathetic sorry to say. Hope you guys enjoy reading it! I'll be posting photos of my boyfriend at the end of this post.


 DON'T EVEN THINK OF ADMIRING CHANYEOL. 아라?!

 

 

 

I died.

Chanyeol and his super natural powers

KYEOPTAAAAAAAAAA.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

It's just so hard to stan him sometimes.

ASSHOLE. STOP IT. FOR GOD'S SAKE. #Showtime

My life may be pathetic but I DON'T DESERVE TO DIE LIKE THIS.

You're still an idiot.

Here's a photo of Kyungsoo for you, YinFun :D
R.I.P

Remind me why do I love him again?
 





You are my shy boy~ Neol saranghae ♥

Chanyeol and KahMun share the same posture. ✌
 

Bitch please.

Hello Guitar Boy ♡

*Topples in front of the laptop*

Fixing your hair publicly is your fetish.

Typical boys -.-

Should I pay tribute to Mr Oh Sehun or should I coax him?









 



Sexy rapper ♥♥♥♥♥

 

 

That's all for now. I literally died and screamed when I was choosing these photos. Luckily none of you were beside me when I was checking these photos because your ears will be utterly strained and the next thing you know, you're suffering a chronic hearing malfunction. Ciao! Xoxo ♥

 

#2YearsWithChanyeol ♥