Hello earthlings! First and foremost, I apologise for the extremely long respite on my blog. I had been running out of ideas in the past few months which has gradually deteriorated my English grammar. Anyways, today I would like to share my thoughts being a 17. I have officially turned 17 on 26th May. I felt rhapsody this year as I received ample wishes from people. I hereby gratitude and gratify for all of the lovely wishes. Before you guys proceed perusing my blog, I would like to warn that this content is explicit and vulgar. Everything is based on my perception. Fragile and vulnerable heart readers are not advisable. Let's start!
1. As I'm getting older, I realise the importance of human interaction of one and other. Let's make things straight, I like meeting new people. They don't know about my past and they won't judge about it. I've met a friend this year, he's like a brother to me. We hang around often and we care for each other. Well, at least he does. He treats me Luke a princess. Like how on earth do you even seek for someone who treats you decently?? I've lost some of my best friends early of the year, but God is good. He's bestowed me many awesome people. The bunch of girls I always hang around with. The girls who accept me who i am. The boy who always be there for me. The juniors who are lovely to me etc. I am truly gratified.
2. Always be yourself. No matter how callous the remarks people pass on you, if they don't reflect on you just ignore it. Sometimes I'm labelled as arrogant and ignorant. Occasionally, people hate me for being an attention seeker where in actual reality I'm just being friendly. Attention seeker and being friendly are two wholly different traits. People seek attention for priorities. I being friendly cause i like meeting new people. Here's a transporter back to my past: I used to hang in a trio. We did things literally together. We were practically glued together.There was this once i got closer with this friend, and then one of the trios was envious. Saying that I betrayed them and envious bullshit. Time wore on, I was purged out of the group. Claiming I was like the most horrible and heinous friend in the world. Judging my attitude, my movement, my breathing idk. Was I depressed? Hell yeah, I cried when i got home occasionally. I eveb skipped school just because I didn't want to get confronted. My self esteem level went from uphill wreck it down to the bottom of the earth. Somehow this anon(she knows who she is), told me to be myself no matter what, neglect what they say or better yet treat their words/tweets as jokes. I am still practicing this behavior even till present time. Initially, I remonstrated to God for taking my friends away, but as time wore on, I realise that God has better plans for me. Honestly if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have met so many awesome people and make amazing memories.
3. Friendship doesn't last. In fact, everything in this world doesn't last long. Everyone has definitely gone through the agony or 'bereavement' of losing your best friend. It is excruciating. You'll eventually brush it off as time wears on gradually.
4. Trust your mum wholeheartedly. Trust her even though she's wrong. Everything she does is correct even though it's wrong. It may sound baffling but when the time comes, you'll be surprised and consented what I've said.
5. It's okay to be an individual. I am an individual. Do I look forlorn? No, in fact I'm glad to be a versatile individual which I can mingle with different group of people. I do not have to rely on my 'close friends' cause I dont even have one. Alright maybe I do 2 or 3. At least I am still able to create amazing memories with my other bunch of friends. Honestly why in the world do you need to go on school trips with your own friends? It's not like you guys are going to stick together forever like 'OH WE'RE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER'. People let me tell you, that ain't going to happen especially when you're in your senior year. Why always stick with your bunch of friends where you can pop out of your bubble of circle and go out garner beautiful memories with your friends which are not from your group? It's the same right. Memories are made specially for you ONLY. You can't buy memories but you can always share them.
// I've recently got back from penang with my bunch of friends. It wasn't an amazing trip but yet it's still worth to be kept as a memory :)
// I have realised in terms of making close friends, age doesn't matter. I can talk with my juniors all day long. From day till night!
// I have also realised that I find it difficult to communicate with my peers at the age of 17 ._. I tend to feel more shy towards them ugh.
