Sunday 26 January 2014

Memories (Part2)

It's the 36th day ever since we broke up. I hate to admit this but it has been very torturing for me. Everyday I try to be happy and try to care less but it's all in vain. He talks to girls loudly whenever I'm in his vicinity. Through this, I can tell he is in his utter pain. He's getting paler and sallow day by day. He's emaciated. He doesn't look as healthy as he used to be. Pimples are starting to sprout around his face. He's been listening to blues these days, watching sorrow movies and cried by himself. Hahaah. Looks like I'm not the one who's suffering this shit.

"How are you doing these days?"
"I'm not doing good."
"Let's be friends."
"We can never be friends because you and I have once assured this fact."

My temper is getting nastier and nastier than I thought. I easily get into fury. I get pissed off really easily. Few days ago, I went berserk at my sister. So this was what happened. I was told to guide my sister in frying eggs. It's been the third time I was required to teach my sister. Here's the annoying part, she was pointing at that bottle of oil asking me is this the cooking oil. I literally went furious. "Whatthehell. Why are you so stupid?! Mummy always says I'm stupid yet YOU'RE THE STUPID ONE." I couldn't believe that my sister told my mum. Surprisingly, my mum didn't pour any hot water on me. In school, I have been putting on my gloomy face. I know I need to hide myself but I just can't refrain myself. I hate myself.

I still love him but I need to stop caring about him though I know the fact that he still cares about me.

My blog has been locked thus I can pour out everything I harbor in my mind. That's all for now. Au Revoir :)

Wednesday 1 January 2014

2014.

Hey readers it's been a few days since my last update. The last update on my blog post was practically about my desolation and me being thrown in the dumps at prom. That was what I felt on last Friday of 2013. I actually never pictured myself in such "soggy" situation. Unfortunately it really occured on me. That's enough of pathos. Carry on.

Here's a short update of what I did during countdown enjoy!

Yes, I went for countdown with my girls and of course Xiupei. The latter was the one who reunited us. We went to her cafe for a meal before heading to the club. While waiting, I chatted a lot like A LOT with Xiupei. She might have seemed to be an arrogant typical Chinese girl but once you get to know her, man she's the complete opposite of what I've mentioned earlier. I was chuckling and giggling when talking to her. Her reactions, her talks, her pokerfacing attitude have never once made me feel like an outsider to her world. It's an utter rejoicing to have a friend like her :)

I drank 5 glasses of beer, Jiayin drank 4 glasses, Xiupei drank 6 glasses lastly our Tai Liven who only drank a glass of beer and had already led her to dizziness. The girls and I chatted too. We walked around the playground which is provided at the club. We shared the same swing together. While swinging, Liven was mumbling to herself. She was saying a lot of weird stuffs to her. No doubt that she's drunk a little yet she reluctantly didn't admit that fact.

We did our countdown together. It was so great to have a countdown with Liven, Jiayin and Xiupei. I'm going to miss Liven so much. I hope she'll work her way off the bitches in her school. While Jiayin and Xiupei, meh I still can see them every day, every minute and every second in school since we're in the same class. :D

I'll be doing my New year resolution on my next post as soon as possible. Stay tuned!

That's all for now. Hope you guys have a great year and all the best in the year 2014:S

Xoxo•Ciao :)