Amazing Grace †

Peace Haven xoxo

Hey guys! I would apologize for the long respite of blogging. I've actually written a draft and it has been neglected there for a few weeks. Anyways, today I'm going to share with all of you about my March Retreat with the TTDI youths:)

Everyone is familiar with me going to the camp. The reason why I recruited as a member of the camp is chiefly because I was really in solicitous of seeking Jesus's help. For the past few months I had been assailed and dross in depression. I thought I would acclimatise this darkness but I was wrong. I couldn't even inure to the sight of me being encumbered in the navy of depression. Therefore I decided to seek for Jesus. Eventually, He is right. If you've faith in Jesus, His love will heal anything demonic.

The camp was held at Peace Haven, Genting. I would like to emphasize the word 'haven', because it is a haven. It's spacious, serves delicious food, provides clean toilets and most importantly it has a free Wi-Fi connection! Funnily we went there by cars. I was in the same car as the speaker(Uncle Kaet San), my 2 friends. Surprisingly, I wasn't asleep in the car. I appeared to be having scintillating conversation with the people in the car. We had reached our destination by 11.00am.

When I trod on Genting's road, I could see mists. It was a cloudy and misty day in Genting. As usual, we were all gathered in the lobby to do carry out the 'ice breaker' activity. I know all of you cringed when you stumble upon that game. You must be thinking, 'great, here comes the lamest and stupidest game.' THAT WAS WHAT I LITERALLY THOUGHT ABOUT. On the contrary, the ice breaker in my church is completely different than the one we always do in school. Basically you have to say 3 statements out loud to everyone else. Out of these 3 statements only 2 are true. The 2 people who are standing next to you will have to guess which one is the incorrect one. "I like sleeping. I like eating and I like jogging." These were the 3 statements that I conjectured. Idk why my statements were the first one among the 3 friends who had made them cracked into laughters. They were startled by the fact that I don't like eating but enjoy jogging. That cycle went on and it got funnier and funnier. After the ice breaker everyone somehow started approaching me especially the guys ORZ. Then we were all assigned to our rooms respectively.

After having our lunch we had a game to play. It was a maze. Each game there will be 4-5ppl entering the maze. While I was waiting for my turn, some guys came and sat next to me. I was rather nettled by one of the guys in church as he was budging his butt to me. Do you know how annoying to have a stranger doing that to you? Clippers… Anyways it was finally my turn to play! Basically there were strings connected to each stacks of chairs. You have to follow the string's path to find your exit. You''re blindfolded in the game. Grace(my chuch friend) she spun each and everyone of us before we started. I wended my way to the exit. I splashed on an aluminum foil of water then I yelled 'ohmygoodness! Ewww' When I was gripping the strings somehow the strings were applied with glue! "Congratulations KahMun, you've reached your exit." When I took off my blindfold, what an astonishment that I was the first one to reach! I was overjoyed!! When everyone had participated in the game, Daryl(the full-time church committee) explained the aim of the game. Basically there were 2 exists in the room. One exist is on the left which might have blighted you to hell and the other one is located on the right which might have rendered you to the Lord. Surprisingly, I ended up going to heaven! Hahaha. Why? Because the way to Lord's heaven is a path embeded with arduous and onerous hindrance. I don't think any of you would fathom this so I should stop explaining lol. Then we had our 1st session with the speaker that is about Conviction. Honestly, I had only been heeded to his attention for 20 minutes then the rest the clouds in my mind were scudded to some place else. After having our dinner we had our 2nd session fondly known as "Commitment". And again I hadn't been paying attention to it all. In fact, I rested my eyes when listening to the speaker. I know I shouldn't be doing this but I just couldn't help it. Then we were scattered to our groups to have a discussion about the particular topic. The only thing that I remembered sharing is about 'hatred'. I told them briefly about the 2 people that I have resentments towards to. I didn't know why I'd blab out such top secret but still I felt relieved to be able to share it out. Here comes the fun part: My group members left to their rooms and I was sitting on the couch surfing the net. Then, one of the twins, Colin, he came down with his tab. The awkwardness that pervaded around us was extremely overwhelming. We were staring at our electronic devices for quite some time and then he finally made the first up and started the conversation. Believe it or not I actually told him about the girl I hated. He asked for her name and I got scared for 1sec when he said he thinks he knows her. I was like 'whaaaat.' When we were talking gleefully all of the sudden, 2 of his friends, his brother and the boy from chong hwa came down. They ralked so loudly and ignored my existence. I sunk into the phone talking to Yinfun. Seriously girl, thank you so much for talking to me during the camp! Idk what to do if you weren't talking to me. Then the boys started talking to me. Yes I was the only girl in the lobby. After that, me, Colin, Craig and Rui Xian went for supper together. Hmm.

The ritual ceremonies went on. Today I did something that I've never done before-meditation. Christian meditation is totally different than the other religion's meditation. It's the time where we talk, think and spend time with God. It was a ravishing and relishing experience. If you guys are interested of how Christian meditates do look for me! I'd be more than happy to recount my experience! In the late afternoon after our photo session, we had a game called 'Captain Ball.' Basically captain ball is a combination of netball(bola jaring) and basketball. Everyone in church had been desiring me to join the game especially Rui Xian. He made me promise to join the game! I had tones of fun during the game and guess what? Everyone was startled by my shooting skills:p The way I shot is exactly the same way as a basketball player shots. Everyone was totally amazed muahaha. "Good job KahMun! Nice shot KahMun!" Then we had our dinner together. After the praise and worship, we had our 4th session:Conflicts. When the speaker ended the speech, one of my youths shredded into tears. Perhaps due to the family conflicts he's stumbling upon currently. As usual, we discussed our topic at the lobby. One of my members which is also my closest friend in church welled in tears as she talked about her grandparents. That moment I felt gratitude having such divine family members. And again, I brought the conflicts between me and her. This time, I commenced of telling more and more about myself. After that, I stayed at the lobby and again Colin, Craig, Rui Xian and some other ppl dropped by. They kept passing comments on my being awkward and quiet. I snorted every time they said so. We chatted until 12.00am and we decided to head to our dorms and all of the sudden they invited me to their dorm for a little chit chat. Back then I didn't think of "anything" because we Christians believe that we're all brothers and sisters in Christ. They thought Francine(my church girl friend) would show up but then eventually I ended up as the only girl in the room. The atmosphere was rather eerie because we didn't know each other well. We played poker on the bed and Craig was teaching me how to play. I bet he was annoyed by my obtuse learning. We chatted until late 1.30am. When I went back to my dorm, my roommates were fast asleep. I felt great but bad at the same time. I felt great because I got to hang out with the guys until late 1.30am which was unprecedented. At the same I felt bad because I didn't get to sit down and have a heart-to-heart talk with my roommates. Overall, I did have fun. Hehe

The next morning, when we were having our final session:Continuity. I literally dozed off when the speaking was droning on and apparently I wasn't the only one. I felt great when Craig sat next to me. He helped me with my bible as I had difficulties finding the chapters in the Bible lol. At 12.00pm we checked out of the dorms and waiting for our ride. While we were waiting, I was again buried myself in my phone and Colin showed up with his ear on the earphone. "What are you listening to?" I asked. Normal guys will be like: Oh it's *the name of the song. BUT Christian boys will not say a word and terus took off his other earphone to your ear. That was what Colin did. I was really shocked. The. Song he was listening was John Mayer's. One of my favourite male singers. "Friends,Lovers or Nothing" that's the song we were listening to. I downloaded it lol. I MEANT NO OTHER INTENTIONS YO. So yeah then we departed to home. Then when I had arrived at the door's of my home sweet home there was a new family member welcomed me-IPAD MINI! Yes, my dad bought me an Ipad mini as my achievement in Pmr even though the results didn't turn out the way I expected.

I really had a flourishing and marvellous time in church camp. People started heeding my attention, caring and tendering for my existence. The resentments that I have towards Samantha has subsided but Yennyi's I have to say no. I still have hatred towards her. I pray to Lord that He would give me His strength and love to conquer the resentments that I have towards not only her but everyone else. Thank you Lord for rendering me such a divine life here on earth. Amen!

 

Extras: -I went swimming with Karen and JingLin on 28/3/14. It was a stupendous and deranged     swim with them. We'll have a sleepover party soon. I vow that. ♥

 

- I made a YouTube video with Xiupei. We're not only Workout partners but we're also YouTube Video partners. We clatter and rant in Cantonese and we both enjoy doing make-ups. ♥

 

- Throughout this holiday, the only person that I miss is YinFun. I miss fangirling with her, laughing ludicrously with her. Also thank you for talking to me on Line when I was submerged in the air of awkwardness during camp. xoxo

 

 

My favourite photo ♥
Credits to the fabulous Kah Mun

 

Rhapsody

Hey guyssss. First off, I would like to apologise for the delay of my post as I was having quite a busy week. This week was one of the best weeks that I have ever savoured so far this year. My vivacity, my diversion, my complaisant are incessantly revived. Bleakness has been drifted away. I had been drown in the ocean of depression and desolation for 2 months thanks to all of your lovely, talented,'beautiful' and 'angelic' Godness and Sylvester aka your so called 'Vester'. I've always hated that name. No. I DETEST, HATRE AND RESENT THAT NAME. How would ppl even address him in such a horrible, disgusting and a ghoul name? Been crying over spilt milks. Been skulking over slightest trifling trivial. I really hated myself. Things worsened when I was diagnosed with the Dengue fever and was hospitalised for 4days3nights. The days in the hospital was a real torture. I had no companion at all. Merely the electronic devices were there for me. I was utterly depressed because of loneliness. After that, I was discharged from the hospital and had a week of respite due to my debility. Again, I was sunk in solitary and I even hated all of my friends. I had the perception that I have no friends after all. When I needed them, there were nowhere to be found. I went berserk of all of my friends including you guys lol. BUT, all of these negativity were vanished ever since I resumed to school. I realised that all of you did care about my existence and I was really gratified of your concerns. Therefore on this post I'd be talking about many things. Enjoy!

(14.2.14-Forever)

The first person that I would really like to thank is YinFun. Remember there was a line where I hated everyone because of your ignorance and negligence? Yeah well she's the only one that I never felt detested. She had been there for me since the day I was absent. She had been chatting with me endlessly every single day. I was really worried about her academics but turned out she aced all of her subjects. I really thank God for that. There was a day where the both of us got drunk at 12.30am and we started 'singing' kyungsoo's part in Growl visually. We even did the hand sign thingy. Therefore, we should totally get drunk someday!!!!!!! Don't be startled and flinched if you see me and Yinfun singing and dancing to Growl at the street or Xiupei's house someday.Hahahahaha. I earnestly will never forget that moment. She's a really fun person to hang out with but the society just never acknowledges her… Sadddd… Anyways I'm really fortunate that we got closer this year. She also made my day when she purposely came to the canteen just to give me a hug. I was really overwhelmed! Thank you so much I'm really truly blessed xoxo. We should talk more in school toooo. If you want to be an idiot for a day, I'd be honoured to play the act of an idiot with you too. Have I ever mentioned that she was the one who sought my cheerfulness back? I couldn't help myself laughing every time when we're together hahahahaha. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.

1.3.14

JingLin and Karen decided to visit me unexpectedly. I had no idea why but I'm really glad that they did. I felt superb when JingLin told me that they were going to visit on Saturday. Deep inside my heart, I thought whoa, even though it's been 2 years since we're separated, we can still maintain our friendship. Therefore I believe that we would have bonded an eternal friendship. We took a lot of selfies: weird ones and pretty ones. They even tried on my clothes! They appeared to be fond of my closet hahahaha. I don't want to blab much cause you-know-I-know right? We had lots of gossip sessions and we enjoyed it. When talking to them it was as though time flowed back in 2012, where the 3 of us stick together and hang around with each other. We had several outings and I honestly missed them so much. You guys are really awesome. I have tones of things to share with you guys and I'm sure JingLin has a lot to say too. Thank you so much for dropping by and we should totally have a sleep over night too. I can't wait for the release of The Amazing Spiderman Part2 and The Fault In Our Stars. LET'S GO AND WATCH.

The first week of school:

Everyone was rejoiced to see my return. They rendered me hugs and concerns about my health. I liked JingLin's and Yinfun's hugs the most. I liked JingLin's because she's a meaty hugger! She hugged me tightly every time we stumble upon each other. Whereas Yinfun's hugs are somehow repleted with candid genuineness. Of course I love each and everyone's hugs. People had been asking me how it was like to have dengue and my feelings during the 4days3night stay in the hospital. I had also been recounting the story over and over again. All of the lessons in school went smoothly. I completed most of the homeworks except for English. See I love this subject the most but my teacher somehow doesn't like the subject. She doesn't even fathom most of the words. For example: There has been a word 'void' inscribed on your English test paper. All of my classmates(excluding me) didn't know the meaning of it. Guess what my teacher said. She said the meaning of 'void' is vacant. I went livid. "NO, TEACHER IT'S 'WITHOUT'." I literally spat the shit out of her face. She somehow didn't seem compatible with me and gave me a hot glare. Man, it's obviously that I got the meaning correct but the teacher didn't seem please about me. The other thing I hate my English teacher is that she somehow underestimates me. We were doing our summary in class on Tuesday. I grabbed Jiayin's book and copied right in front of her eyes. "Hey girl, what are doing? Copying heh?" "Teacher, I'm just copying the points, I'd modify the words." I sounded demanding. In the end, teacher trod at my place and checked my summary. She was speechless. She perused my modified words and kept reassuring the words. I was like erm do you really understand what I'm writing or handwriting is too ugly to be fathomed? Eventually, she gave me 5 out 5 marks for my language cause I modified and amended most of the words. Most people only rewarded with 3/4 out of 5. See, this is why people, never ever underestimate me. Especially English teachers. They see me as a slothful little brat who does nothing but copying. But hell, when it comes to writing, you'd get blown away by my masterpiece.

During some of the lessons, I tend to be talkative. Like really talkative. My mouth just can't be shut especially when sitting next to Xiupei. Cantonese dialects are audible in class. We laugh, we yell, we talk like there's no tomorrow. These days, we have happened to talk profusely as we've discovered our mutual interests: Fitness and Workout. There was a day out of the 5 days in school we literally discussed everything we acknowledge about Workout and Fitness. We are totally motivated because there's this force pulling us to the gravity that we need to be hard core. Therefore, we call ourselves the Workout Freaks and Workout Companions. But to her and everyone, I'm a more hard core and intense workout and fitness girl. Recently I have been working out a lot. Dawn till dusk. No joke man. I wake up at 5.40am in the morning just to do my abs workout. Then in the evening, I'd go jogging and do my abs workout and my legs workout. I'm doing all these not because I'm afraid to gain weight but because I want to be slim and slender like I looked like because getting the Dengue fever.

I'm currently poring over a book intriguingly named as 'The Fault In Our Stars'. It's a book where fictional romance begins. It's a very stupid book but I like it. I love the lines in the book. It's a metaphor: You put the killing between your teeth, but you don't give the power to do its killing." This is my favourite line and JingLin knows the true meaning it:3 I don't want to write out too much details and points of this book cause it'll take me a whole blog post for me to do so. Carry on. Recently I've been stalking girls. Not ordinary girls but Victoria's Secret Model girls. Yeap. Drooling right? There's this model affectionately named Candice Swanepoel and Barbara Palvin. Wtf, they're like the most beautiful girl in the world. They literally melted me. Ohmygosh, I whined and wailed whenever looking at their photos. Impeccable and respondent in all dresses and bras. GOD. I WANT TO BE LIKE THEM. Therefore, Chanyeol, Barbara Palvin and Candice Swanepoel are my new addiction. GOD. THEY'RE LIKE A PERFECTION TO ME. HOW CAN I NOT BE CAPTIVATED. ALTHOUGH, I may like Victoria's Secret Model doesn't mean that I'm fond of their products. Tbh, I'm not a fan of their products. I'm a fan of every branded stores but I just don't like Victoria's Secret products. I just can't get it why hmm. Oh yeah I'm recently "recruited" in One Republic's fanbase!!! Woohoo! I always listen to their music when I'm editing my blog even now I guess.

In conclusion, this has been a joyful and fruitful week! I have been vivacious and cheerful all week long and it is all thanks to you people for making this to happen:3 Thank you for giving me such an awesome week. I love each and every one of you here. Thank you for reading my super long post xoxo.


That's all for now. Ciao•Xoxo ♥

Barbara Palvin my lady.

 

I literally gawped and melted. She's really smoking hot.

This is Candice Swanepoel. She's a South African girl. She's also my grace.

This is my idiot, Chanyeol.