Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when
I'm afraid
To fall But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died every day waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a Thousand years
I'll love you for a Thousand more…
This was the opening theme song of the prom night, Last Friday Night. This song was performed by Foong(guitarist) and his talented gang members along with Yenn(vocals), Radin(vocals) and DunHe(guitarist). This song was dedicated to a girl whom the boy loves and that he vows that he'll love her for a thousand years. It was really sweet to see such dedication to someone. While I was listening to the song, my heart somehow stung a little and I could feel tears welling in my eyes. I actually cursed them for playing the song. Everyone was enjoying the food at the food service provided. My stomach wasn't peculiarly rumbling at all. All I could hear was my excitement and rejoicings that I once felt had entirely deluged with blues. They performed several songs on the stage. Somehow my spirit for the prom was deflating. I didn't eat much except for the fresh fruits that Yinfun and Enqi took. I was staring at the place where he was dining.
I ran away when they were halfway performing as I couldn't condone the atmosphere in the hall. There Jiayin and I were stranding in the deserted island trying to seek the attention from their lover's. Eventually we sat outside of the couch foolishly listening to our own songs while people in the hall were jamming crazily. There I was, scrolling up and down my twitter timeline. I happened to stumble upon Exo's performance in SBS2013 Gayo Daejun( doubtful about the spelling). Watching them performing ease me a little. Then, rapid knocking sounds of high heels were emitting from the stairs and Jiayin and I both exchanged quizzical looks. It was Liven. Me:"What are you doing out here?" Liven:"Some girls are performing on stage and throwing a very sexy stage. He dashed his way into the hall without a word." Me:"Welcome to the club." Liven:" I saw your partner just now. I whacked his asses off to come out and look for you. All he said was 'Why do I even care? We're already broke up.' After hearing this sentence, I hadn't been talking ever since. I engrossed myself in my music. Not long, Hey yoong came out and grabbed Liven's hand and went back into the hall dancing. While listening to the musics, my tears were welling violently, I tried to fight back but eventually there was a teardrop around the corner of my eye. Jiayin was so startled to see me holding a tissue paper. When I was wiping off my tears, he dropped by to see my humiliation. Got his greetings and comforts. He asked me to join the party. I hesitated. Without a word, he grabbed hold hold my shoes and hands and the next thing I knew, I left Jiayin all alone. Sorry Babe…
When I stepped into the hall, the scene had changed completely. Smokes were billowing and I somehow felt so drowsy. I was bare footed. He pushed me into the dance floor. I could hear people roaring and cheering but I wasn't happy at all because I knew that he'd dump me after this for the lovely and beautiful seniors. So then one the song 'Can I have this dance' played during the slowdance, I was glad that I was dancing with him. We spoke. My intuition was right, HE DID DUMP me because of the seniors HAHA. There I was despair and numb. I went back for Jiayin.
Talking to Jiayin has always make me feel good. She knows me very well. I witnessed every bullshit at the hall. For once, I felt like going away and never turned back. As I was talking to Yinfun and Jiayin, he came back for me again. Then we danced. Then he chucked me to Foong. Yes, the prom king. I danced with him when 'slow dancing in the burning room' was played. We had a little chat. And awh, I'm going to miss him because he's so cute HAHAHAH. So yeah, I was a little cheered.
Basically, I felt really ugly and depressed last night. Yesterday wasn't really my day at all. I almost smeared my face with mascara, nearly lost my clutch, got dumped, legs sore and last but not least I didn't even get to have an xoxo. There were two moments which I actually got cheered up. Firstly, it was at beginning of the prom where songs were synchronising. One of songs were "WOLF by EXO." My happiness were burgeoning and I was revived! I was jamming to the song along with Yinfun. Yeah, she's the only girl besides Jiayin who would kindly go crazy with me because of Exo. Secondly and most importantly, I'm so happy for Jiayin! She was not only the star of my night but she got to dance with her crush. And it was utterly thanks to me. LIM JIAYIN, YOU HAVE BETTER PAY TRIBUTE TO ME OR ELSE. She was smiling all the way after having a dance with her crush:p
I actually vowed not to bother him after yesterday night. I vowed not to be crying over split milks. I vowed to tell myself that they're mere seniors and juniors dancing for the last night. But I just couldn't do it. I hate myself. In conclusion, I didn't enjoy myself at all. Sorry to say that.
I'll wait. Hopefully you will not forget me. Haha…
Here's a song entitled Open Arms to end my grave of this blog post.
Lying beside you here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind?
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me, open arms
Living without you, living alone This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
That's all for now. I repent if my post is too lousy. Xoxo:)
